Lazy

I have not exercised since Saturday. So today my boys and I went on an hour and a half walk. So that gave me a bit of negative calories. Came home and did 200 crunches and 50 leg lifts. So I am at -210 calories for the day. You would think with results like that, I would be satisfied. The only thing I have kept down was 57 calories worth of frozen yogurt. And that wasn't too long ago. So I'm feeling huge. I hate that feeling. Of feeling full. These days, no matter how little I eat, I am always feeling full. Dinner has been in the crock pot for 3 hours now. I'm making Spicy Chicken BBQ sandwiches, baked potatoes and salad for dinner. Except mine won't be a sandwich. I don't need the extra calories or carbs. And I most definitely won't have a baked potato, but instead I will have some raw veggies. I bought some plain Greek yogurt at the store today. I think tomorrow for breakfast I will have some of that with some kiwi that I also bought. It really sucks that despite how healthy I may be eating, I still don't keep the food down. I'm scared of the calories, also can not stand that full feeling. I had a very stressful morning because my oldest son's father didn't pay my child support yesterday like he was supposed to. I rely on that money. As much as I hate to admit it, I need the money to help with bills and some other small necessities. It's frustrating. I had to cancel my therapy this morning because I didn't even have the gas to get there. He makes me so upset. I just want to cry. Then bill collectors have been calling me all day. I'm just so over this day. I just put my youngest down for a nap, maybe I will just start some laundry and lay down with my book. I am not sure when T will be home, but dinner is supposed to be done in about 3 hours. Hopefully he will be home by then. We stayed up until almost 2am playing Yahtzee. It was fun. We haven't played since I got it for Christmas. It was perfect him and I time. While we were playing, I had such a craving for nacho cheese Doritos, so I grabbed a brand new bag and went through the whole thing. And maybe ate a total of 4 chips. Like I've said in the past, I just enjoy licking the flavor off of them and then give the chip to the dogs. They enjoy that too. I'm weird, aren't I? I'm hoping after dinner tonight I will be able to work out. I have only purged 3 times today which is good. Then after tomorrow at noon, I will be kid free, so I will be able to work out all I want. Yay! Well I'm going to read my book. Thank you all for the comments on yesterday's blog. I still haven't heard back from my blood results. Hopefully soon. Much love.

XOXO Katie